#janganjualmahalsangat

A friend said that to me. A guy friend.


The bar set too high? Or afraid of getting hurt again?



I think it's both.

cooler than me (ergo, he deserves an entry).

he spoke good english. i thought he was cool.
his ringtone was the killers' all these things that i've done. i thought that was cool.
he used htc smartphone. so i thought htc was cool.
he was an anaes mo. and i thought anaes was cool.

i mean, seriously. i wanted to be an anaes, just because he was one. and he was so cool.



haha. this was one year plus ago. he was unmarried (he is now. gained a few kgs. but it feels good to see that he's happy). it's not that i really like like him, i just thought he was really cool. so having met him a few days back felt really good to me. he actually asked my name! haha! just imagine your first ever real crush just asked your name (if he doesn't know your name lah). it was fun. i really love to hear him speak. and how he looks me in the eye when he explains things.


okay now i'm officially jealous of the wife. lol. but still, that day was fun, and it remained a good closure to me (cause it's obvi that he's married and all. and p/s: he's the first malay guy i know that actually put on his wedding ring! talk about cool.).


and if im blessed with a son, i would like to name my baby after him  too (provided daddy wont mind. i bet he would :p). just because his name was cool.

in less than 48 hours!

..............and i'm super stoked omg!



songs that i really hope they'll play, pleaseeee.


1. all these things that i've done. my forever all-time favourite!
2. read my mind. cause i dont shine if you dont shineeee
3. for reasons unknown. omg i love this song i dance to it every day >.<
4. runaways
5. be still, or a dustland fairytale. either one.
6. human
7. the way it was
8. spaceman
9. smile like you mean it
10. when you were young
11. jenny was a friend of mine
12. replaceable. i freaking love this song, but it is actually an unreleased track in 2002. and they never play this on tour, so yeah :(


in the meantime, brunch hari ini;

the fruit tart.

so earlier today i gave chee khing, kak eda and farah the fruit tarts i made on Sunday.


on eating the fruit tart,


ck ; wah so nice leh. why don't u have a boyfriend?
me ; -.-


hergh.

the arrogant iFags.

i hate Samsung. i probably hate HTC (the only reason it's okay is because doctor crush was using htc one. those were the times. meh.). and i currently have a strong dislike towards my Lumia.

now i realised how arrogant and annoying iFags are. every phone apart from an iPhone - in my hands, has a cheap feeling to it. omg sumpah over gila. i didn't even needed an iPhone in the first place, but when you lost one, it's like losing one of your limbs. losing your senses. 

i want an iPhone. i need an iPhone. but being a cheapskate i am, it's just expensive, and hard to get one. and after you lost one, it became so so so ridiculously expensive to get another.

i hate this feeling. haish.

i lost my iPhone.

i FREAKING lost my iPhone.


as for the moment, more than 24 hours after i lost my iPhone, my brain is still numb. and i lost all my senses. i couldn't sleep, let alone study. of course i can blame the whole world ; for me not being at home when i was supposed to, for me being there eating at Harbor Place and what not. but ultimately, i know it's my fault. i was careless. i didn't even notice i wasn't holding the phone - until i needed to use it.


this is just too hard. i know i shouldn't be too dependent on it. but i am. i mean, i was. it's where i kept my notes, my awesome apps to play with whenever i'm bored, all my medical apps as references, my 2gb sh*tload of songs, it tracks my period. i can't believe it's gone. just like that. no goodbyes. and yeah i still remember how the keyboard click sounds like, how my last text was from gg, last call was from topek, last game was iron man and last song was kita by forteen. I JUST CANT FREAKING BELIEVE THAT IT'S GONE.


and i got myself a Lumia for the time being. of course there's a lot of drawbacks. being an Apple user for almost a year, i cannot just simply fall in love with this new rm600 worth of Lumia on day one. sabar Azlah, sabar.


Ya Allah, permudahkanlah. You have better plans for me, and Your blessings are always countless. Please help me pass through this. Amin.

and that includes you.

♪ safe & sound - taylor swift ♪

i express loathe, but it doesn't mean i always do. i kinda miss hearing you.

if you're not the one.

so now it's (irrational) love above all, or rational above everything?



*sigh*

don't ask.

she sees him in every thought she had
but never chose to set it free
she takes in all the pain he gave
and made it a part of she.

irony.

isn't it weird ; how you long for something so much, but when it comes to you then, you're suddenly avoiding it? suddenly realising that you actually despise it, and you're better off without it?

it's called irony. it's called life.

deal with it.

hey listen, you missed out.

why?

why come back?

why waste energy, yours and mine?

so unnecessary.

occasional "how are you"s are never gonna make me go tachycardic anymore, you see. and better still, there's a tinge of disgust di situ. sumpah, tak tipu.

seriously, go. leave.

feseni is over yaww!!

Finally right. Months of practicing is over, worth with satisfaction of minutes of applaud. And you are so damn wrong if you think that I'm actually happy that this is over. Coz the truth is I'm not. Relieved, kinda. But happy? Seriously I don't really like the fact that it's over somehow. Boring sudeyhh malam-malamku. Sigh.

So anyways, here's the video.

I'm not gonna talk (or write?) that much about this. LOL. Ini entri bergambar okay :)

BEFORE.

Malam preview FESENI @ 6th.

Abg Poh Ghee.

DURING.

AFTER.

3rd place + best costume. 10 medical students. 6th college. Out of all other colleges in UM. Who would've thought, right? Teeehee. None of this would be possible without you people around. Thank you soo muchhh for this :)

Abg Poh Ghee, Abg Din, Abg Udean, Abg Zerul, Ana, Nini, Hafiz, Marcella, Irish, Boni, Taufiq, Chu Yee, Qing Yu, Kina. (no particular order kayhh)

People say that dancing is all about bringing people closer together. Well. So damn true kann. Hypothesis is accepted. *wink*


ps : photos are mostly from Timothy Cheng. Thankyou!