being twenty.

 

vain betoi nak numbering bagai. hewhewhew. these happened around my birthday =)


1. berries pavlova sandwich @ ben's klcc.
2. nachos libre (nachos, melting cheese, sour cream, jalapenos & avocado mash) @ ben's klcc.
3. batik conteng @ petrosains.
4. candylicious' LOVE tablet choc from anna, piya & nini! lovesss. zips from my roommate shahirah.
5. jjcm wif izzah, pika & fad @ taman tasik titiwangsa.
6. 50 bucks platter set wif nini @ rak thai, the gardens.
7. tf time! @ tutti frutti ampang park.
8. 7th dec 2011 at twilight! @ taman klcc.
9. gojes shawl & awesomely embossed pocket mirror from shamim! and don't forget the card too! lovess.
10. tate's 'meet your match' wording on a matchbox (with matches in it) hehee. hopefully *cough cough*.
11. game cards @ ben's klcc.
12. gojesss nose casual low-heel sandals from ayah! super duper lovessss.
13. lovely caress'  plush bunnies from zhafir, khalis & imran moi dear labmates! sweet okayy, tacing gua hihi.
14. choc fudge from nadia the stalker *muehehehee*.
15. santa hat, a birthday present for myself yay!

missing in action :  

1. new year's eve movie ticket, pipah belanja! lovess.

2. dr muhaya's 'how to be a good & successful medical student' book from mak. super lovesssss.
3. 1st birthday song at 12am @ moi room.
4. 2nd birthday song at 10am+ @ the lecture hall! hui yin made the announcement & the entire hall sang for me! toucheddd la sobs. lovess!
5. sunway lagoon-ing with moi family :)
6. birthday wishes thru the phone. things like these are so underrated these days. sekarang suma fb ja. heheh. anyway, thankyouu for those who called & texted. lovess :').
7. addition please : ferrero rocher & a cute strawberry keychain from ikah. and a necklace with my name as the pendant, from pipah. and julia plush doll from meline & fiza! lebiuuu bebehs :-* 
8. the fact that i've always wanted to dine at ben's, but never got to do so. and now am able to do so, coz it's my birthdayyy! weehooo! ben's is super awesome btw, wud love to go there again!
9. a real boyfriend.

hahaha! okok, again thanks for making my 'being twenty' day awesome as evahh! adios amigos :D

random awesome.

hello :).

i just got back from meeting my pasum buddy, aflah. had some chit chat, anddd she said that my english has improved weehoo!

haha okay, no big deal la but after that 7 months gap of not talking to mr f, he also said the exact same thing to me back then. takde la nak become sappy or what now, it's just that i remembered answering the same thing to him (i.e. i befriend with more non-malays now)  and the way he laughed and told me that i din't need to explain everything. it's kinda true, somehow. with him, i tend to blurt out and explain every single thing i had in my mind, eventhough it is obvious that he was just expecting a one-word answer. pshhh.

okay okay loser gila post kali ini. maaf. but hey, at least i posted somethin. hihi. oh and it's back to december already. happy december people :)

bcoz this pic reminds me of awesomeness :)

medicine.

okay, it's kinda fun. no doubt about it.

but, when you have so many things to be read and understood and memorised upon.

you just kinda sit back and thought, "what the hell am i doing?".

haishhh.

kikikiki! source.

irony.

isn't it weird ; how you long for something so much, but when it comes to you then, you're suddenly avoiding it? suddenly realising that you actually despise it, and you're better off without it?

it's called irony. it's called life.

deal with it.

hey listen, you missed out.

why?

why come back?

why waste energy, yours and mine?

so unnecessary.

occasional "how are you"s are never gonna make me go tachycardic anymore, you see. and better still, there's a tinge of disgust di situ. sumpah, tak tipu.

seriously, go. leave.

vasovagal syncope.

vasovagal syncope (noun) : 
temporary loss of consciousness due to low blood pressure, with its mechanisms mediated by cranial nerve number ten, the vagus nerve.

#a not-so-intelligent definition from the super lazy mind of  'azlahmohdazhar's :S

 tips: papepon harus kekal random awesome ^_^

450 mLs of blood donated before isya' prayers, goal number 3 achieved :D

objective : sajer gedik nak document my experience of fainting for the first time. despite occasionally having low bp for already a few years now, i have never fainted. when moi postural hypotension strikes pon, i do lost my balance once in a while (inability to stand/walk straight. i keep on falling to my left/right), tapi syncope tak pernah kot. serious dowh :S

anyhooo, this is what happened. honestly, during isya' prayers i was still feeling perfectly fit, but came tarawikh i started to experience a tinge of dizziness. tapi somehow kan teringat meline cerita about this one particular DPHS lecture, on perception of health & illnesses. so i kept on reminding myself that this dizziness is just my perception only. perception perception perception. seriously, i was way too preoccupied to even hear pon imam tengah recite apa. and the next thing i knew, i felt a rush of blood gushing to my brain, and it all went blank, as black as night.

then everything felt so surreal, so dream-like. i remember feeling unsure, empty and lost. i remember hearing distant voices of people calling my name, pleading asking me to wake up. and it almost felt like my own subconscious mind was telling me that i have two choices tahu : either to stay there, lay as dead, or try to open my eyes and wake up. and i chose life *ceh ayat nak gedik je*. but yeah, it's not easy to lift my eyelids back then, and it's even harder to recognise the surrounding, that i was actually in the surau, that i fainted while praying.

it took me a while to gather myself, and to digest the surrounding. i was asked to rest and eat/drink something, and what i had in my bag were milo, folic acid & ferrous fumarate tablets, obtained during blood donation previously. so, not wanting to be choosy, telan jer la kan. and bersandar je kat tepi menangisi nasib diri. until it's tadarus time.

oh and i promised myself that i was going to finish the prescription. religiously. dah malas nak syncope. not cool :')

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and all that, is seriously real. no exaggerating (ok fine. probably a bit la). but hey, i still reckon this to be : memorable. serious kot :D

ps: thanks a bunch to those who wished and visited! terharu kot padahal sihat je esoknya hehe. syncope je pon, but still, thanks for caring. oh and this entry's for you :')

you.

what happened to us?

:'(

am i gonna die on a saturday?

i'm not gonna say much. read this and this. and you can google more to find out more articles.

Klik untuk tumbesaran.

taken from this article:

Saya selalu mendengar ceramah agama daripada ustaz dan guru-guru di situ. Salah seorang daripada ustaz tersebut memberitahu. Orang-orang Islam, Insya-ALLAH akan mati dan meninggal pada tarikh yang sama. Contohnya Nabi Muhammad S.A.W, nabi yang kita sayangi. Beliau lahir pada 12 Rabiul awwal iaitu pada hari Isnin dan wafatnya juga 12 Rabiul awwal pada hari Isnin juga. Kata ustaz itu lagi, kalau kita tidak mati ditarikh yang sama. Insya-ALLAH akan meninggal di hari yang sama kita dilahirkan. Kalau hari Jumaat lahirnya kita. Kita akan meninggal pada hari Jumaat.

i never heard of this before, honestly. ayah yang cerita. said he heard this kat masjid, ustaz bagi ceramah. he said i might die on a saturday. and mak might die on a friday. it's a bit scary though.

tapi somehow kan, i think it's just plain awesome how my family can talk about death calmly. i mean, that's the way it's supposed to be, right? you'll never know when you're gonna die. so be afraid of it. talk about it so you'll always be reminded.

so come every saturday, ada la a tinge of perasaan takut sikit.

but just don't percaya bulat-bulat la. ajal maut semua is in Allah's hand. we just have to be prepared kan.

btw selamat menyambut bulan rejab everyone. puasa puasa puasa :)

Harry Potter : The Exhibition

Hedwig baby, come to mama!

Harry Potter : The Exhibition. The one and only exhibition that I wanna go so badly!! Tapi unsurprisingly semua exhibitions are only held around the states lah kan so far, memang tak la nak datang Malaysia.T.T




So in case you're wondering, this exhibition is the place for you to get up close & personal with the props, costumes & watev lagilah HP treasures, from the first Harry Potter movie till now! Yeahhman how cool is that?? Nimbus 2000, Gryffindor's Boy Dormitory, Mandrakes in pots, Harry's glasses, the Marauder's Map, Harry's wand, Death Eater robes & masks, Quidditch robes! Gahhhhh best gillah kalau dapat tengok semua ni!! 

Cornish pixies pun ada?? ps: gambar dari sini.

The only thing that's missing then would only be Danny! And his hot English accent. T.T

Gambar dari sini

Okay sedih. Saya taklah banyak duit sangat nak fly to US tiba-tiba semata-mata nak cuci mata tengok benda ni. Baik pergi umrah lagi kan. Tskkk. Ok so anyone rasa-rasa nak pergi you can visit this website. 

Sekian. 

feseni is over yaww!!

Finally right. Months of practicing is over, worth with satisfaction of minutes of applaud. And you are so damn wrong if you think that I'm actually happy that this is over. Coz the truth is I'm not. Relieved, kinda. But happy? Seriously I don't really like the fact that it's over somehow. Boring sudeyhh malam-malamku. Sigh.

So anyways, here's the video.

I'm not gonna talk (or write?) that much about this. LOL. Ini entri bergambar okay :)

BEFORE.

Malam preview FESENI @ 6th.

Abg Poh Ghee.

DURING.

AFTER.

3rd place + best costume. 10 medical students. 6th college. Out of all other colleges in UM. Who would've thought, right? Teeehee. None of this would be possible without you people around. Thank you soo muchhh for this :)

Abg Poh Ghee, Abg Din, Abg Udean, Abg Zerul, Ana, Nini, Hafiz, Marcella, Irish, Boni, Taufiq, Chu Yee, Qing Yu, Kina. (no particular order kayhh)

People say that dancing is all about bringing people closer together. Well. So damn true kann. Hypothesis is accepted. *wink*


ps : photos are mostly from Timothy Cheng. Thankyou!

5 hrs = RM400

A medium-sized jug of coke (which has Carlsberg's LABEL on it) can actually cost RM52. Huh. Who knows right?

And also. 5 hours of yelling at the middle of the night can cost you RM400. I'm like, seriously yaww?? Really?........ But nvm lah. We're like pocketful people so we don't really mind lah. It's kinda easy to let go. Kot. Teehee.

payung emas

While I was showering, tibe2 teringat pasal conversation kat depan DTC dengan Taufiq (friend/coursemate/collegemate), time jaga checpoint Moonlight Jogathon for FIS. Ok this thing happened like forever ago, but still I wanna blog about it. I don't caree! *tak pasal2*

Ok sambung. If I'm not mistaken it started when he browsed through the playlist on my phone, so it's either me or him who started to reckon that I have a weird taste in music. Honestly, I don't think it's weird, AT ALL. It's just that I don't really like to listen to songs that people listen to, and I don't like it if they sing along the same song as I do. Simply tak suka, no other reasons. Tapi bukannya tak famous langsung. I listen to some indie songs that mr ex used to sing allll the time, and that was 5 years ago la tapinye. Hehe. Bands like Plague of Happiness, Tipe X etc. And I started to grow fond of British bands like Arctic Monkeys, The Libertines/Babyshambles, Oasis etc while I was in MRSM. And the same songs got stuck to me until now. See? Not that weird kan? So anyways, sambung balik about the payung emas.

Me : Pelik ke (referring to the songs on my playlist)? Aku tak suke dengar lagu yang orang dengar. And aku tak suke orang dengar ape yang aku dengar.
Taufiq : Mesti susah nak dapat payung emas ni. Grin.
Me : Payung emas? Apetu?
Taufiq : Mesti kau taknak kongsi laki ngan orang lain. Kalau kau bermadu, kat syurga nanti dapat payung emas tau.
Me : Mestilah taknak bermadu weh! Sape yang nak??
Taufiq : Ko jangan tanya aku weh. Aku takkan fahamm. Double Grin.
Me : Ala taknak ah. Payung je kot.
Taufiq : Wehh payung kat syurga kot. Kau ingat same ngan payung kat dunia?
Me : ROFL. Ok tak la sampai on the floor. But still, it was super funny when he said that. LOL.


Again, it was not that brief, and if you don't know him Taufiq doesn't usually sound like that sebenarnye. Susah nak construct ayat yang dah ingat2 lupa. but anyways that's the idea.

Payung emas. HA HA. LOL. Taknak kongsi cop! Double LOL :) 


Emm ok enough about payung emas kot. Talking about weird, nak tulis jugak about my conversation with Syed (coursemate jugak), ade sikit time DD & ade sikit dalam FB (I can't remember which is which). I told him that James McAvoy is HOT, and he was like "HAH? TAK HOT LANGSUNG!". And I also told him that I adore Alan Rickman (aka Severus Snape), and he was like "KAU DAH KENAPEE". And he said I have a weird taste also.

Zzzzz.

Siapa kata weird? Siapa kata diorang tak hot? James McAvoy, Liam Gallagher, Oliver Jackson-Cohen, Peter Doherty, Alan Rickman, Alex Turner, John Mayer, Mohd Aliff Farhan Mohd Marzuki

Ini bukti. LOL.

Ok Syed kata. And I bet most of the guys I know would agree.

Zzzz again.

Dah tu siapa yang hot?? Ok jangan jawab. That's a rhetoric question. You pun tau kan I have a weird taste. so I wouldn't agree with your opinion.

Tak caya? Try me. Teehee.

new hair

New hair. After this whole ex-saya-nak-kahwin-lain thingie, in any way possible somehow I just needed to feel different. I needed a distraction. I don't wanna be, or even look like myself for a while. So pi salon buang masa & buang duit la. Times Square. RM200. Mahal coz it's TS la people! Sewa tapak 7K. Normal lah tu. It felt damn good so it's worth it la.

So anyways I had mocha white coffee at Old Town Jaya One just now. Am feeling giddy, as usual. Tapi coffee itu sangat sedapp. So delicious I had to blog about it. Pastu takley tido sebab caffeine took over my system dah. Ish.

Haha. Entah pape.

Ok buhbyee.

Independent Women Can Go Shopping Alone

Yay. Blogger favourite saya, Maria Elena Zarul with her British accent! Hey if I were to speak macam ni baru la boleh tanya the "where did you get that accent from" question kan? HA HA. So Dr Bharti, I think you should listen to this :)

Anyway nak comment sikit about the "Independent Women Can Go Shopping Alone" statement ini.

I totaly agree. I love to go shopping alone okay. Reasons:

1. When you shop together with your girlfriends, definitely they would wanna shop too, so you'll end up giving your opinions on the dresses they're trying pulak dah, instead of them giving their opinions to you. Yang tu not that bad lah. The bad side of it is you girlfriends might end up liking the same dress, and then berebut nak beli pulak dah! Apekes? Hey, it happened to me, okay. I know.
2. Shopping with family. I do not need to elaborate kot. Moms criticise a lot & I don't really like that. It spoils my shopping mood. Sorry, mak, jangan marah :)
3. Shopping with boyfriends. So far I kinda like shopping with them coz they always give great opinions without you needing to ask for it. Baru pegang hanger dah "eh, aku suke baju ni. nampak mahal", or "eh smart lah weh. sesuai kot ngan ko. beli ah". Coolio. Yang tak sukenye is the part when I'm asked to give opinion on you guys punya baju pulak. Ish. Sorry lah babe, no comment. Tak reti lah.
4. Shopping with special boyfriend. Oh tak boleh please. Jangan ikut boleh tak, nak tengok baju pun tak senang la. Jangan pegang tangan I boleh tak, susah nak tengok2 baju ni. Ok tu dalam hati je. Takkan nak cakap depan2 kan. Hehe. Anyways so far I hate shopping with him. Maybe I have not found the right one yang boleh buat shopping togetha2 ni exciting kot. HA HA.

Okay itu je. So shopping alone doesn't mean I don't have friends okay? Pffft.

ps : Baru 2 hari da 3 entri. Eh please lah. Takde keje lain ke?

i miss.

i wanted to be there, again.

My constant thought of someone brought to the existence of this entry, honestly.

So, that's it. Parkson East Coast Mall, Kuantan, Pahang. It's where I spent my time after I received my Probation license, that was on 2009. I miss this place so much. Damn much. 

The reasons why this place matters A LOT to me:

1. My parents had to let me drive to this place coz it's kinda far from home. It's how I first gain their trust to drive anywhere alone.

2. I met a lot of new people from various backgrounds. The closest to me among them were:

• Kak Liza : She was 27 back then if I'm not mistaken. Got 2 kids already. She worked next to my counter so if I ever needed to go anywhere or change my shift I must go straight to her, so she can cover my back when I'm not around.
• Kak Imah : She was 21 when she gave birth to her first kid. Hehe. Too young right? I'm currently 19 & I am not even married yet! Wanie & I went to visit her shortly after that. I drove my car, of course. And being me, we did lost our way first, of course.
• Lan : He was 20. Can be pretty annoying sometimes. He loveeedd to make me angry, whatever the reason was. But we're kinda close back then. He was an avid smoker. But he coughed a lot also. Tired of giving advise coz he surely will mock me back. When we're having our break (or we called it as off duty), he'll definitely smoke. Definitely. And that smell got adherent to me also. Sheesh.
• Taufiq : Mamak looks! That's all I can remember. Hehe. He's a nice guy. 21 back then if I'm not mistaken. He helped me a lot to finish labelling all 42 cartons of clothes. That period of time was hell. Anyways. Thanks, Taufiq, wherever you are :)
• Husni : Wanie looove to call him Husna. Haha. His hairstyle is the contributing factor of course. Same age as me. And his ex girlfriend looks a lot like me also. I agree haha. She does lah weh. That explains the way he acted towards me I guess. He was from MRSM too. Muadzam Shah la tapinya. Pity I have no idea where he is right now. The last time we met was before he enrolled into matrics. Ate ice cream. He wore a baseball cap time tu. And old skool glasses ( he doesn't wear glasses normally). Emm dah tak ingat dah hehe.
• Wanie : My bestie. She's the reason how I got there in the first place. Tak perlu masuk list la kot. We're still besties right now :)

      You don't see people like this when you studied in MRSM like me. So, yeah. It's a great deal for me to know people like them.

3. Entirely new work routine. Get the DO (Delivery Order) from the shirtless Abang Ayie at the loading bay, take the form from the office, make a price list for tagging boys to print 'em (tagging work made easy coz Abang Fariz has the hots for me back then. Dia sanggup hantar those things to me when other promoters had to take 'em themselves. HA HA. Serious. Tak caye tanya die :S), label the stuffs & display 'em on the rack. Make sure cashbill is moving. Promote my stuff. Smile all the time. Help customers when needed. Tell them where the nappy room, surau, toilet, ATM etc is. Coz my counter is among the first counter you see if you use the escalator. Hey, I know it sounds easy but it is not. Tiring, sumpah. But it was still fun to be around a lot of people :)

4. It's where I met F. It kinda kills to still think about him now. I know I needed to let go, and I swear to God I'm trying to. 




So, yeah, you got your answer. It's him, the reason why this entry existed. 

pathetic.

i know, as much as i hate it, eventually i will, and now, here i am, so hi :)

salam & selamat petang.

wow. such a long title. anyways, can't believe i'm finally here. kan? yes, as much as i hate blogs. 

i'm an avid writer, you see, but i only write in a diary which i keep only to myself. rasa tergerak untuk buat blog bila terjumpa blog seorang manusia ni. ok i'm not gonna talk (or rather, write about that). anyways i know it'll eventually happen pon. it's just a matter of time. macam FB la. believe it or not, aku baru buat FB pon a few months ago. while i was in PASUM i keep reminding myself "bangang je FB tu. buang masa", but now, here i am. holding on to FB like a methamphetamine. well, i need to make full use of my 3.6K vaio lappy kan? anyways, welcome, azlah, to your new world.  no more diary, aite?

must use it wiselyy :)