random awesome.

hello :).

i just got back from meeting my pasum buddy, aflah. had some chit chat, anddd she said that my english has improved weehoo!

haha okay, no big deal la but after that 7 months gap of not talking to mr f, he also said the exact same thing to me back then. takde la nak become sappy or what now, it's just that i remembered answering the same thing to him (i.e. i befriend with more non-malays now)  and the way he laughed and told me that i din't need to explain everything. it's kinda true, somehow. with him, i tend to blurt out and explain every single thing i had in my mind, eventhough it is obvious that he was just expecting a one-word answer. pshhh.

okay okay loser gila post kali ini. maaf. but hey, at least i posted somethin. hihi. oh and it's back to december already. happy december people :)

bcoz this pic reminds me of awesomeness :)

medicine.

okay, it's kinda fun. no doubt about it.

but, when you have so many things to be read and understood and memorised upon.

you just kinda sit back and thought, "what the hell am i doing?".

haishhh.

kikikiki! source.

irony.

isn't it weird ; how you long for something so much, but when it comes to you then, you're suddenly avoiding it? suddenly realising that you actually despise it, and you're better off without it?

it's called irony. it's called life.

deal with it.

hey listen, you missed out.

why?

why come back?

why waste energy, yours and mine?

so unnecessary.

occasional "how are you"s are never gonna make me go tachycardic anymore, you see. and better still, there's a tinge of disgust di situ. sumpah, tak tipu.

seriously, go. leave.

you.

what happened to us?

:'(

feseni is over yaww!!

Finally right. Months of practicing is over, worth with satisfaction of minutes of applaud. And you are so damn wrong if you think that I'm actually happy that this is over. Coz the truth is I'm not. Relieved, kinda. But happy? Seriously I don't really like the fact that it's over somehow. Boring sudeyhh malam-malamku. Sigh.

So anyways, here's the video.

I'm not gonna talk (or write?) that much about this. LOL. Ini entri bergambar okay :)

BEFORE.

Malam preview FESENI @ 6th.

Abg Poh Ghee.

DURING.

AFTER.

3rd place + best costume. 10 medical students. 6th college. Out of all other colleges in UM. Who would've thought, right? Teeehee. None of this would be possible without you people around. Thank you soo muchhh for this :)

Abg Poh Ghee, Abg Din, Abg Udean, Abg Zerul, Ana, Nini, Hafiz, Marcella, Irish, Boni, Taufiq, Chu Yee, Qing Yu, Kina. (no particular order kayhh)

People say that dancing is all about bringing people closer together. Well. So damn true kann. Hypothesis is accepted. *wink*


ps : photos are mostly from Timothy Cheng. Thankyou!

new hair

New hair. After this whole ex-saya-nak-kahwin-lain thingie, in any way possible somehow I just needed to feel different. I needed a distraction. I don't wanna be, or even look like myself for a while. So pi salon buang masa & buang duit la. Times Square. RM200. Mahal coz it's TS la people! Sewa tapak 7K. Normal lah tu. It felt damn good so it's worth it la.

So anyways I had mocha white coffee at Old Town Jaya One just now. Am feeling giddy, as usual. Tapi coffee itu sangat sedapp. So delicious I had to blog about it. Pastu takley tido sebab caffeine took over my system dah. Ish.

Haha. Entah pape.

Ok buhbyee.

i miss.

i wanted to be there, again.

My constant thought of someone brought to the existence of this entry, honestly.

So, that's it. Parkson East Coast Mall, Kuantan, Pahang. It's where I spent my time after I received my Probation license, that was on 2009. I miss this place so much. Damn much. 

The reasons why this place matters A LOT to me:

1. My parents had to let me drive to this place coz it's kinda far from home. It's how I first gain their trust to drive anywhere alone.

2. I met a lot of new people from various backgrounds. The closest to me among them were:

• Kak Liza : She was 27 back then if I'm not mistaken. Got 2 kids already. She worked next to my counter so if I ever needed to go anywhere or change my shift I must go straight to her, so she can cover my back when I'm not around.
• Kak Imah : She was 21 when she gave birth to her first kid. Hehe. Too young right? I'm currently 19 & I am not even married yet! Wanie & I went to visit her shortly after that. I drove my car, of course. And being me, we did lost our way first, of course.
• Lan : He was 20. Can be pretty annoying sometimes. He loveeedd to make me angry, whatever the reason was. But we're kinda close back then. He was an avid smoker. But he coughed a lot also. Tired of giving advise coz he surely will mock me back. When we're having our break (or we called it as off duty), he'll definitely smoke. Definitely. And that smell got adherent to me also. Sheesh.
• Taufiq : Mamak looks! That's all I can remember. Hehe. He's a nice guy. 21 back then if I'm not mistaken. He helped me a lot to finish labelling all 42 cartons of clothes. That period of time was hell. Anyways. Thanks, Taufiq, wherever you are :)
• Husni : Wanie looove to call him Husna. Haha. His hairstyle is the contributing factor of course. Same age as me. And his ex girlfriend looks a lot like me also. I agree haha. She does lah weh. That explains the way he acted towards me I guess. He was from MRSM too. Muadzam Shah la tapinya. Pity I have no idea where he is right now. The last time we met was before he enrolled into matrics. Ate ice cream. He wore a baseball cap time tu. And old skool glasses ( he doesn't wear glasses normally). Emm dah tak ingat dah hehe.
• Wanie : My bestie. She's the reason how I got there in the first place. Tak perlu masuk list la kot. We're still besties right now :)

      You don't see people like this when you studied in MRSM like me. So, yeah. It's a great deal for me to know people like them.

3. Entirely new work routine. Get the DO (Delivery Order) from the shirtless Abang Ayie at the loading bay, take the form from the office, make a price list for tagging boys to print 'em (tagging work made easy coz Abang Fariz has the hots for me back then. Dia sanggup hantar those things to me when other promoters had to take 'em themselves. HA HA. Serious. Tak caye tanya die :S), label the stuffs & display 'em on the rack. Make sure cashbill is moving. Promote my stuff. Smile all the time. Help customers when needed. Tell them where the nappy room, surau, toilet, ATM etc is. Coz my counter is among the first counter you see if you use the escalator. Hey, I know it sounds easy but it is not. Tiring, sumpah. But it was still fun to be around a lot of people :)

4. It's where I met F. It kinda kills to still think about him now. I know I needed to let go, and I swear to God I'm trying to. 




So, yeah, you got your answer. It's him, the reason why this entry existed. 

pathetic.