i lost my iPhone.

i FREAKING lost my iPhone.


as for the moment, more than 24 hours after i lost my iPhone, my brain is still numb. and i lost all my senses. i couldn't sleep, let alone study. of course i can blame the whole world ; for me not being at home when i was supposed to, for me being there eating at Harbor Place and what not. but ultimately, i know it's my fault. i was careless. i didn't even notice i wasn't holding the phone - until i needed to use it.


this is just too hard. i know i shouldn't be too dependent on it. but i am. i mean, i was. it's where i kept my notes, my awesome apps to play with whenever i'm bored, all my medical apps as references, my 2gb sh*tload of songs, it tracks my period. i can't believe it's gone. just like that. no goodbyes. and yeah i still remember how the keyboard click sounds like, how my last text was from gg, last call was from topek, last game was iron man and last song was kita by forteen. I JUST CANT FREAKING BELIEVE THAT IT'S GONE.


and i got myself a Lumia for the time being. of course there's a lot of drawbacks. being an Apple user for almost a year, i cannot just simply fall in love with this new rm600 worth of Lumia on day one. sabar Azlah, sabar.


Ya Allah, permudahkanlah. You have better plans for me, and Your blessings are always countless. Please help me pass through this. Amin.